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Text of a talk given at West Coast Birthday Event |
Someone sent over the text of a talk given by a woman student at the West Coast Birthday Event. Since I didn't make the event, I found it quite interesting:
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Rama’s Birthday Celebration
Neptunian Club
Manhattan Beach, CA
February 12, 2005
A couple of months ago, Rama asked me inwardly, during meditation, if I would speak at his birthday celebration. He asked me to talk about what I’ve been doing for the past few years.
So, when I agreed to do that, my first job was to figure out where the birthday celebration would take place. I started asking around. Then I realized that the solution to the problem was very simple: Stalk Zazen. Because these guys are always in the right place at the right time. One email led to another and finally I receive an email from Zazen: “LA”. I thought, ‘LA? That’s interesting.’ Meanwhile, Rama seemed to be working overtime on the dream plane. Different people report that he is showing up in their dreams. So I think, ‘is Rama trying to pull people to LA for his birthday?’ Then, of course, we learn that they’ve scored the Neptunian Club, the place where Rama taught in the early eighties. At this point, you don’t have to be psychic to know that ‘Surf’s Up in LA’.
So the question naturally arises: ‘What is so special about LA / the Neptunian Club / Rama’s Birthday 2005?’ Perhaps it’s our Zen koan for the evening. For me, in trying to figure out the answer, certain moments from the early eighties came to mind.
When Rama sat on this stage at Neptunian Club, he was going through the final stages of his Enlightenment process. Often, he talked to us about his experiences. He would say things like:
“I’m telling you about each stage of my process so you’ll realize that I’m really not any different than you are. Each stage I have gone through, you will go through… I want you to understand that I’m not a special person. I’m not different from you. When you start to remember who you are, it will be very much like the stages of my own Realization.”
Rama also talked a lot during the eighties about the times in which we live: The Kali Yuga. He always painted the scenario something like this: In 1985 a lower occult energy is going to roll in over the Pacific and hit the coast of California, then continue across the United States. The energy will get progressively worse until the 2003/2004 timeframe, at which point humanity will make a decision. Sometimes he would laugh and say, “Are we going to blow ourselves up? Or are we going to stick around?” Then the energy will begin to taper off and get gradually better until 2012. At that point there will be a cosmic dissolution. The old cycle will end and a new cycle will begin where the energy will be pristine. He used to refer to it as a golden age.
I also remembered something Rama said during a desert trip. It was the trip where he announced that he was changing his name from Atmananda to Rama. He explained that Rama was an incarnation of Vishnu. The Hindu cycle of time is Brahma, Vishnu, Shiva. Creation, Maintenance, and Destruction. Vishnu is the maintainer, the one who buys humanity more time. When Vishnu leaves, he explained, Shiva starts to dance. So we stood in a circle at the end of the desert trip, as we always did, and Rama turned in a circle meditating on each one of us. Then he branded this statement onto our consciousness. He said: “Don’t forget who I am.” Then he repeated it. “Don’t forget who I am. Because if you forget who I am, you will forget who you are.”
And at the end of another desert trip he said: “You think because I stand at the center of the circle that I’m important. I’m just the guy who came here to network you. You are the ones who will be on the front lines in this incarnation.”
In sharing with you my experiences from the last few years, I want to begin in 1998 when Rama left the body. I had been his student for 18 years. I was very disheartened by his leaving. Basically I didn’t want to go on with the incarnation without Rama. About a year later, I bumped into a sangha member who said to me: “Bhakti, Don’t you understand that Rama is more available to his students than he ever was? Don’t you realize that he’s right there inside of you?”
So, the next day, when I sat down to meditate, I decided to test the theory. I must have stopped being angry at Rama for leaving and opened my heart to him for the first time in a year. Of course he was right there inside of me, more available than he ever was. And we proceeded to have a dialogue in which he asked me, “How would you like to do some work on behalf of women on the planet?” I said, “Oh, Yes!” Whenever Rama would talk about the imbalance between the masculine and the feminine on the planet and how that manifested in the oppression of women, wars, famines, and so on, how every imbalance on the planet could be traced back to that one core issue, I was riveted.
So the point is, when I opened my heart to Rama, when I began actively seeking his guidance, immediately he began working with me inwardly and started nudging me about my dharma.
At this point I did an about-face. I began asking serious questions: “What is the incarnation really about?” “What does that mean to be on the front lines?” I took responsibility for my own Enlightenment for the first time. I recognized I had a limited amount of time, that no one was going to do it for me. And I got radical. I quit my consulting assignment in NYC, rented a house in a city where I had never lived (and that wasn’t easy because we lived in most of them) and did a 3-month meditation retreat where I took my practice apart and put it back together in every way I could conceive of.
Then, by a quirk of fate, I went on a trip to South Africa and things began to get interesting. While visiting a magnificent power place – sort of the Grand Canyon of South Africa – I learned that, years before, the men who formulated the Apartied system had met at the resort where I was staying and drawn up their plans for taking control of the country. As I meditated there, I saw that they had usurped the power place and laced the energy lines that ran out to all of the cities in South Africa with Apartied energy. I saw, in other words, the way they had implemented the system on an occult level. I had never seen anything like this and I was fascinated.
So I began investigating. The energy I tapped into burned the subtle physical because it was composed of so much hatred and violence. But something inside of me wanted to experience this energy fully because I knew if I could enter the core of Apartied I would arrive at the core of the Patriarchy, that one was a microcosm of the other. After 3 meditations I managed to push through this wall of burning energy. And I ‘saw’, I felt fully for the first time the essence of the imbalance between the masculine and the feminine on the planet.
When I pulled my awareness back out I was livid. Not emotionally livid, but occultly livid. I said spontaneously to Eternity, “If there is anything I can do to change this, let it be known that I volunteer.” At which point a bazaar thing happened. I heard Rama’s voice saying, “Prepare to do battle” and hundreds of dimensions opened up all around me. And there was a sound. It was the sound of a thousand soldiers coming to attention, the sound of their rifles hitting their chests in unison. BAM! And it reverberated through all of these dimensions. “Holy shit.” I thought, “What have I done?” My body shook involuntarily for the rest of the day.
So although I didn’t realize it at the time, I had just volunteered for my dharma.
At this point, I entered a 2-year period where Eternity must have felt I needed more sanding down. Looking back, I can see that Rama was guiding every step, giving me exactly the experiences I needed.
I began working for a company founded by a member of the sangha. Basically everyone who worked for the company was in the sangha. It was in New Mexico and we were a little isolated, but that was alright. We had our mini-sangha and the sangha members were our friends.
The CEO was an amazing man. I don’t think he ever doubted Rama or his own ability to wake up. And Rama had told us just before he left the body, “You can wake up in this lifetime. Two things are required: your practice & your belief. You must believe in your own Enlightenment. If there is anyone in your life who doesn’t believe, eliminate them.” So I aligned myself with this quality of belief and cultivated my own belief in Enlightenment.
During this 2-year period, I had many inner dialogues with Rama. Most of them ran along the lines of: “I need some of my women students to wake up. Are you willing to take on the task?” And I had my first download from Rama’s Lineage. He used to call them ‘the company’ and said that they are a network of beings in other dimensions who work in unison for the well-being of humanity. When Rama speaks, I know it’s him because he tells me things I’d never think of myself (just as he did in life) and he’s very funny. When the Lineage speaks, it’s quite different. They speak in unison, a chorus of voices, 60 or 70 magnificent warrior beings. And they speak slowly and distinctly. On this occasion they said, simply, “The work you will do on behalf of women will change the planet. Don’t let anyone, ever, convince you otherwise.”
So, at this stage, I don’t yet know what my dharma is, but Rama is pushing me from behind and the Lineage is beckoning me forward.
Then a very strange sequence of events took place. My father died. My mother had died years before and because I was an only child I had to go home and make the funeral arrangements. After a few days I returned to New Mexico and my first day back at work the CEO walks into my office and says, “Bhakti, I’m really sorry but we’ve got to lay you off.” So within the period of one week, I have no family, no job, no income, no sangha, and no friends. It was a though Eternity looked at the neat little chess board of my life and ‘Whoosh!’ – swept it away.
I was completely disoriented. To say that I experienced fear is an understatement. I was in a state of abject terror. I had no idea what to do with my life. I knew I had to settle my father’s estate. I knew it would take about 3 months. And as I started to do that work I realized that it couldn’t take more than 3 months because I felt I had some sort of an appointment back in New Mexico at the Summer Solstice.
I arrive back in NM on the eve of the Summer Solstice, 2002 and decide to hike to an awesome power place near my house, the Caldera. It’s very Atlantean, very diffuse energy. So I’m hiking up the mountain and thinking to myself, “Okay, I’ve volunteered for my dharma – I’ve figured that much out for myself. Rama has said ‘prepare to do battle’, which seems to imply being on the front lines of something, somewhere, at some point. Eternity has swept the chess board of my life clean, which would seem to indicate that I’m at a transition point. And I feel like I have an appointment.” The conditions were perfect.
It was sunset. The crack between the worlds opened. I explained my situation to Eternity in great detail and offered up what, to my mind, was a very sincere prayer: “If you have any guidance for me at this time, I’m very open to hearing it.”
No answer.
So I’m trudging back down the mountain, thinking, “Okay, my knees are shot from sitting in a lotus position for 30 years. My adrenal gland is shot from 18 years of Rama’s spiritual boot camp. My life has been blown to smithereens. And I can’t get a fucking answer!”
The next morning is the Summer Solstice and I don’t feel much like meditating. But of course I do. A few minutes into the meditation I get my spiritual marching orders. The Linage speaks:
“For the next six months, between the Summer Solstice and the Winter Solstice, get up to speed on what is happening in the world. Read about politics, economics, and global affairs. Look behind the scenes to learn what is happening on an occult level. Figure out the existing occult structure. Your job, once you have identified the underlying structure, will be to disassemble it. You have been trained for many lifetimes to accomplish this. Your body has been wired for the task. You know how to take things apart. You are not the only person working on this problem. There are many. You will collaborate with some of them.”
At this point I moved from abject terror into complete immobility. My heart had stopped beating. I had stopped breathing. And it was not because I was sitting there in Samadhi.
So, I began to research. Now I must tell you that this was not exactly my idea of a ‘spiritual’ dharmic task. Nor was it exactly my idea of who I was. Some days I had serious doubts about the Lineage, the download, and my sanity. Other days I was certain I was doing my dharma because I didn’t want to be anywhere else. The sense of ‘am I in the right place doing the right thing?’ vanished and I was completed captivated by the magnitude of what I was researching.
Then at one point, I was listening to one of Rama’s tapes and on it he says, “As spiritual seekers we’re normally very quiet. We like to meditate. We have our practice and our sangha and we don’t bother anyone. But if the society in which you are living goes off course, it is your duty to become a political activist.” I should note that I don’t think Rama’s idea of political activism was marching in Washington. He suggested we not even bother to vote. He said that, as occultists, we affect change in other ways.
So this gave me the confidence to continue my research. And sure enough, at end of six months, just after the Winter Solstice, I began to get downloads from the Lineage about the underlying occult structure.
And I just happened to bump into three women who had studied with Rama who were very concerned about the state of the world and extremely well informed. We began what amounted to a giant seeing exercise. We worked for 4 months to assemble the components of what we called the Patriarchal Puzzle. It consisted of rings of power that exist on the planet, energy lines, meridians, usurped power places, and fractured earth chakras. We put everything in a big spreadsheet. Well, what do you want? We worked in computing.
We studied all of the polarities and inverted energies. Rama said everything in this age is reversed. So, for example, women are programmed to be weak, but in reality, their essence is power. We did a highly technical analysis of the energies of the Kali Yuga and the mechanics of how they were put into place. And in the end we saw that Eternity was literally holding consciousness down. We realized that it was doing so in order to push people’s backs up against the wall so they could make the highest possible decision in 2003/2004. We saw that Shiva was dancing and that it was perfect.
The instruction had been to disassemble the underlying occult structure. Three of us continued on with that assignment. The whole project took 2 years. All of 2003 and 2004.
We ended up doing did a meditation on each component of the Patriarchal Puzzle. Actually, we figured out right away that we couldn’t do the task. No human being could do what the Lineage proposed. But we could facilitate it. During our meditations, this beautiful, luminous blue-white energy of Mother Divine would descend, enter our crown chakras and move out through the heart chakra. So it was the pure energy of love that moved into this structure and transmuted its energies. (And when you think about it, that’s perfectly logical. If you are working on a Patriarchal structure that is dominated by male energy, you need a down pouring of feminine energy to balance it out.) So our job was simply to move our mind and what remained of our ego out of the way. It was to witness the changes. Then we would journal our experiences and compare notes. It was uncanny. We had each seen and felt the same things at the same time. We had each experienced the same shifts in energy. And I have to tell you that these were the most powerful meditations I have ever done. And I’m including in that assessment my experiences with Rama out in the desert.
There are two important aspects of the project I would like to highlight because I feel they are important. The first is that the project was collaboration with members of the sangha. Rama had, through the years, encouraged us to work together. We worked on software teams. We had gotten together to form companies. I have to confess I never succeeded at the task. My ego always got in the way. But this collaboration was different. The magnitude of the task outweighed the petty egoic issues that arose. We were each told repeatedly that it was our Enlightenment process and we supported each other’s Enlightenment completely. All of us brought special skills to the table. And yet, on another level, we were all the same. Because we were all Rama’s students, we were wired in exactly the same way. When we did synchronized meditations – one woman on the West Coast, I had, by that time, been directed to move to the East Coast, and one in the center of the U.S. – we formed a circuit that caused the power of our intent to become not 3 times more powerful but exponentially more powerful. It is very clear to me that I could never have done the project alone. And I know that, because of the collaboration, our awakening process speeded up dramatically.
The second thing I would like to highlight is that the nature of the project was pure selfless giving. We executed the project for the planet and her peoples. Rama taught us that until we figure out that we’re not important, until we realize that compassion and selfless giving are the most important things, real progress doesn’t begin in self-discovery. And he told us that it is only when we surrender our lives to Eternity and make every action an act of selfless giving, that the advanced stages of the evolutionary process begin.
So that is the story Rama asked me to share with you. During the past few weeks, as I have prepared my presentation, I’ve meditated deeply on ‘Why?’ ‘Why did Rama want me to tell you this story?’ and on the Zen koan ‘What is so special about LA/Neptunian Club/Rama’s Birthday 2005?’
First, I think the timing is interesting. We have just come through the 2003/2004 time period where humanity made a decision. My perception is that each of us as an individual was asked to make a decision. A doorway opened and one could either choose to align with the navel chakra, third chakra, third dimensional world of power where people are leaning lessons about abuse of power. Or, one could align with a more sane reality, a fourth chakra, fourth dimensional, heart based reality. For us, however, as spiritual seekers, I don’t see this as much of an issue. We have chosen light and ascension repeatedly. If you are here tonight, you have certainly chosen light.
Nor do I think 2012 is really an important issue. There are many speculations as to what is going to happen. Rama said it would be a cosmic dissolution, that it would not be exactly what people thought it was going to be. He said that as we approached the golden age, old energetic configurations would go away and new ones would be put into place. He said that every psychic worth his or her salt for thousands of years had predicted it. And they are still predicting it. Look at the Internet. But this to me is not particularly interesting. If you drop the body. If you hang onto the body and transit through to a new age. What difference does it make? Rama taught us to be warriors, that there is no death, that life goes on forever in one form or another. So I don’t feel that 2012 is particularly interesting.
What is extremely interesting is the 8 years between now and then. And the fact that we’re at Rama’s birthday 2005 – the beginning. As occultists we know that beginnings and endings are important. So I have to ask myself, ‘Did Rama pull us here because he wants us to begin properly? Is he realigning us tonight, spinning us out in a new direction?’
As I continued to meditate on ‘Why did Rama ask me to tell my story?’ I realized that the point of the presentation is not the specifics of my dharma. I think it’s an interesting story in that it indicates we are not exactly who we think we are. But many of Rama’s students are currently living their dharma so I’m not special in that regard. Each of us must seek our own dharma. Each has a unique dharma. Each dharma is important and special for the simple reason it is your dharma. But the point of my presentation is not ‘find your dharma’. Nor is the point collaboration with the sangha. And the point is not selfless giving.
The point is, I finally determined, Enlightenment. And I’m not standing here telling you I’m Enlightened. I’m not. I am telling you that by finally implementing these three aspects of Rama’s teachings – dharma, sangha, and selfless giving – my Enlightenment process has speeded up significantly. I’m telling you that I believe in my own Enlightenment. I’m telling you I’ve never been happier or more at peace.
No, Rama’s point tonight is Enlightenment. Wasn’t that always Rama’s point? Wasn’t that his point right here in the Neptunian Club twenty years ago? “I want you to understand that I’m not a special person. I’m not different from you. When you start to remember who you are, it will be very much like the stages of my own Realization.” So has Rama drawn us back to the Neptunian Club because he stored power here? Because there is wisdom here that he wants us to access? Because he wants to reference a parallel – his Enlightenment process then, with what we are capable of going through now?
“Don’t forget who I am,” Rama told us. Have we thought about this lately? Who is Rama? Not just your average Enlightened master. We’re talking a 5th level maha-siddha, occult master, advanced tantric master, warrior, bodhisattva. Vishnu. Rama was an incarnation of Vishnu.
So who does that make us? We – and I’m referencing everyone in the room including those who are being mentored by Rama’s students because if you have an inner relationship with Rama, he is willing to be your teacher. So all of us in this room have sought out an incarnation of Vishnu as our teacher. That’s not normal. It’s not special. But it’s definitely not normal.
So do we honestly think that if we ask for Rama’s guidance regarding our own Enlightenment, that if we get proactive and ask in each meditation, ‘what do I need to do today in order to wake up? What is my biggest block to Enlightenment?’ Do we think if we asked for his help he wouldn’t give it?
Do we think that if we ask the Lineage’s help, that wouldn’t happen? The Lineage who is present in the hall tonight, magnificent warrior beings who encircle the hall, just waiting, hoping to be asked for guidance?
We are the Lineage.
A fabulous quote came across on the American Buddha email the other day and I’d like to read it to you. Rama said:
“We will not be in this world much longer. We will be going someplace else. So it's necessary to use your time as constructively as possible, to reach the totality, to become as aware as you can of that which you really are… The tribe is home. There is no physical place that's home. Home is the tribe as it roams from place to place. As a network, we roam the universes, the galaxies, the inter-dimensional planes. And we make friends wherever we go – because we're warriors of light, warriors of intensity, warriors of power.”
Warriors of light, warriors of intensity, warriors of power. He was talking about us.
You know, every soul on the planet has chosen to be here at this time. The people in this room have lived on the planet for thousands of years. We’ve had hundreds of incarnations. Most of us have lived through two complete cycles of existence. And we find ourselves at the end of the Kali Yuga. We find ourselves poised on the threshold of a time in history that is unprecedented.
And we, as a sangha, have everything we need at our disposal. We have Rama. We have the Lineage. We have the great good fortune of being realigned tonight so we can begin properly. Mother Divine has unplugged the Patriarchy. There are new energetic structures for this golden age that are already in place, some that Rama worked on during his incarnation – diamond bodies, upgraded light bodies, all kinds of things – available for spiritual seekers to align themselves with and be supported by. The vibration of the planet has speeded up and will continue to speed up. Our karma comes back instantly to let us know when we are off. We can make changes like that! And the Enlightened energy of Mother Divine is literally pouring down on the planet. All you have to do is open your crown chakra and align yourself with the heart.
The tides are completely with us.
And it’s time. It’s time for us to wake up. It’s time for us to remember who we are. It’s time for us to dance.
“Don’t forget who I am,” Rama told us. “Don’t forget who I am. Because if you forget who I am, you will forget who you are.”
Who are you?
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